...pages of the life of a BEAN...

anyway, i'm just writing in my LJ after a long long long long time because i am currently researching for my thesis and i seem to be going nowhere... well at least my partner has had a few lucky breaks for we are now ALMOST finished...

haaaay... ano ba tong ginagawa ko, nagawa ko pa magLJ kahit hell week na.. ewan, wala na sa school ang isip ko, gusto ko na magbakasyon... hahaha... batchmates, saan ba ang lakad natin?!!!! hahaha...

anyway, there is another issue in my head right now... sunday is looming quite fast and i know that i'm going to talk to her on that day... oh my, what revelations would be unfolded on that fateful day? i dont know.. and i shouldt think about it just yet because i still have a thesis proposal defense on friday...

3 days to go... this is it, the final stretch.

i think i screwed up my life once again... this is the nth time this has happened...


not a week ago, i realized something that gave me headaches (and that very wonderful dream)... one of my friends was right all along... i guess i'm still stuck on that same spot where i was about half a year ago... maybe i haven't really moved on...


HOLY SHIT.


WHEN WILL I LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES?!?!?!?!?!?!!!


then came the next chapter in my life... or so i thought... just when i thought that this was it, life slaps me back into reality with the parting words, "life is not always full of happy endings"...


why am i always the one who doesnt know anything and ends up looking like a stupid pile of shit?


im getting torn apart right now...


i think i'll go kill myself now...


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yes, i've said that when it seems that life is fucking with you, remember that sex is a two way process... but this time, i think life decided to play gay on me and took me from behind, leaving me with nothing to do but wait until its done...

crap. fuck. shit.

even cussing has lost its color...

*sigh*

ok. so i have to do community service for 8hrs because i have a stupid parking violation... i chose community service instead of paying 500 pesos because i'm trying to save up for the summer and it's for experience.. hehe..

anyway, i would just like to say that it's harder than people think! i was at ADSA from 1pm to 530pm today... ok, so it was a different day because the seniors are having their clearances signed and all.. can you imagine having to deal with A LOT of seniors who are submitting their clearances?? the task was to collect the clearance papers from the seniors and then check if they have hold orders then have them signed by Mr. San Andres. easy? you wish! hahahahaha..

the first problem was that there were A LOT of seniors. yes, we were working but the papers just kept on piling up on us... then there was the problem that the staff had other things to do besides sign the clearances... so we were asked to tell the seniors to just get their signed clearances tomorrow at 3pm. and here comes the bitchy part of the work... there were some who would just submit their papers and then leave... ok that's good. but there were the really annoying ones who would insist that they were earlier told to return at 3pm this afternoon to claim their already signed papers... the probmen was, THEIR PAPERS WERE NOT SIGNED YET! so they would go ranting on and on about how their time was wasted and all that crap but in the end, they still wouldn't get their papers because the papers weren't ready yet! then there are the really funny ones who, after being told to return at 3 tomorrow, would ask, "3pm?" HELLO!?!?!! OBVIOUSLY I MEANT 3PM! WHO WOULD GO PICK THEIR CLEARANCE UP AT 3AM?!!! come on people, use your brains!!! hahahaha...

anyway, at around 4pm, things started to die down... i was able to rest for a while because all i had to do was to alphabetize the clearance papers that were already signed...

and at 530pm, i was free to go...

ok, so this experience was really new to me... honestly, im tired right now... good thing the staff at ADSA were really kind and nice and funny (they were debating on whether or not they should eat the food that arrived for Mr San Andres. according to some, it's ok since he was not there so he wouldn't know.. hahaha..)

anyway, i'm going back there tomorrow, on wednesday and on thursday because i still have 4hrs of work left...

watch out for pics at my multiply account! hehehehehe...


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ok, this entry was not meant to offend the seniors in any way, shape or form. yes, if i was a senior and i had to go through the whole "submission of clearance" process, maybe i would also be pissed off... but hey, i was at the other side of the window so i was calling the shots. hehehehe... people, these are my opinions. so deal with it...

IM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

finally, the long wait for a pc is over!!! hahahaha... naayos na yung pc namin at eto ang unang entry kong issulat sa newly fixed pc ko...

ok, so my dreams of a faster and better pc might have vanished... pero what the heck, nagtipid dad ko kaya pinaayos na lang nya yung lumang pc namin... hehehe...


anywayz, masaya lang tlga ako at may PC na ako at nakakapagYM na ako!!! 2:31am na at kachat ko pa si LJ Funa kasi kinwento nya yung nangyari kay rica... kawawa naman si rica... tapos may iba pa kaming pinaguusapan... hehehe...

grabe, parang andami kong gustong sabihin dito sa entry na to pero tinatamad ako... hahahaha...

anyway, IT'S GOOD TO BE BACK!!! hehehehehe...


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2 days to goooo...

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~nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na lalong mahulog sa iyo?~

ok... so could this day get any worse???

at around 8am, i was on my way to school because we had some unfinished lab work to do... but as i passed by visayas ave, MY FRONT BUMPER GOT CLIPPED BY THIS STUPID JEEPNEY!!! why?!?!?! because the fucking driver was too busy laughing at something or someone to notice that his jeepney was moving diagonally along the road!!! MOTHERFUCKER! ok, so lucky for him, my bumper was torn already (due to the accident i had last year with the stupid motorcycle) for i was able to put the bumper back in place. and lucky for him i didn't charge him anything, in fact, i even gave him something in return, A REALLY REALLY HARSH VERBAL BASHING! hmph... served him right...

moving on, we were working in the microbio lab... we were 5 minutes away from completing our task... forget the hunger in our stomachs, forget the lack of sleep, forget everything! we were just happy that it was almost over.... and i put much meaning to the word ALMOST because when one of our classmates opened the incubator, CRAAAAAAAAAASHHHHHHHHH! our petri dishes containing our samples fell to the floor and, well, you've guessed it, broke into pieces!!! three dishes were broken meaning they were invalid! OMG OMG OMG!!! we spent almost 3 hours working on those plates and then suddenly they literally came crashing down on us... now we really don't know what to do...

finally, we just got the results of our microbio lec long test (yes, the one i was ranting about in my previous entry) and yep, i guessed it right, i failed... hahahaha... but it wasn't as bad as i thought it would... 57/100... hahahahahahahaha... i was 3 points away from passing! wow, so much for false rationalization... *sigh*

anyway, this day ain't over yet... although i'm looking forward to seeing someone later, i still don't know what could happen between now and then...

that's it, i'm done ranting. i'm out.


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~coz you had a bad day...~

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~nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na lalong mahulog sa iyo?~

kakatapos lang ng microbiology 2nd long test namin at.......

anak ng puch... babagsak na naman ata ako...



oh well, ganyan talaga pag hindi ka nakapag-aral para sa isang test... haaaay, what's new?!?! eh inaantok ako eh... ano magagawa ko... sabi nga nila, the mind is willing but the body isn't... badtrip pa kasi nalaman kong hindi na ako inaapektuhan ng kape! lecheng incident back in 4th yr yan o! 2 weeks na kape para nde makatulog dahil may pinapatunayang point sa isang tao! hmph! siguro oras na para makahanap ako ng bagong paraan para nde antukin... leche...

haaay, hindi naman ako nagagalit kng papasa ako o hindi kasi handa na akong bumagsak kahit anong mangyari kasi tanggap ko naman na nde nga ako nakapag-aral... pero ang nakakaasar eh kahit ilang beses ko na sinasabing magbabago na ako at mag-aaral na, hindi talaga eh... dumarating pa rn sa point na nakakatamad na tlga mag-aral tapos aantukin na ako... leche... bakit ba ganto!?!?!

maybe i just need to fix my study habits some more... oh, did i say some more?!?!? i meant FIX MY STUDY HABITS! kasi hindi naman siya maayos to begin with!! tangina. what happened to the "magaaral-ako-the-day-before-pero-maiintindihan-ko-pa-rin" robin? ano yun, naiwan sa high school?! leche...

haaay, ayoko na mag-rant kasi wala naman magagawa yun... kelangan lang magbago... any suggestions/advice?

i feel like crap.


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on another issue, its been 2 days now and i'm missing someone badly...

(oo, hindi ko na isusulat na "too bad you can't read this" kasi the last time that i did, NABASA mo! hahahahaha...)

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~nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na lalong mahulog sa iyo?~

grabe... last day before classes resume... parang hindi ko naramdaman yung bakasyon ah... andaming taong nde ko nakita... sandy at reuben, surreh naman!! hahahaha...

anyway, yesterday was interesting... wala akong tulog kasi nag-usap kami ni rean about a certain problem kagabi... grabe, shocking...

tapos kanina, nagkaharap na ulit sila ni mhekie at ayun, nag-usap na nga... grabe... nde ko na-take ang mga details... grabe talaga...

anyway tinatamad na akong mag-update...


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si nico, kinikilig sa tabi ko.. bakit kaya??? :D

DADAMI NA NAMAN ANG PILIPINO.... lol...

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~nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na lalong mahulog sa iyo?~

belated meyy christms people!!! :D

hmm... ranting about little things: wala akong gaanong regalo this year... hahahaha pero ok lang yun... marami naman akong chocolates na nakuha! thanks jen and coeli! hehehehehe...

wala na rn akong pera... kawawa naman ako... buti na lang bibili na kami ng bagong pc kasi naaawa na tlga sa akin yung magulang ko... hahahaha...

hindi ako nakapuntang paskuhan last week... sayang...

oh, on the brighter side of things...

THE BARKADA XMAS PARTY WAS A BLAST!!! SUPER SAYA NIYAAAA!!! thanks ems for the flash disk na card reader!! wuhooo!!! next year ulet!! :D


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~nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na lalong mahulog sa iyo?~

ok... so its early morning wednesday today at and2 pa ako sa shop kasi wlang kasama si RJ... hehehe... free play naman ako eh... so ok lang.. :D

grabe, last day na later before the Christmas break and im really not planning to go to school tomorrow kasi isa lang naman ang class ko... shet... hahahaha... pero may PMSA EB Salu-Salo kami so papasok na lang rn ako... hahahaha...

oh, baka pumunta kaming paskuhan... yay, makikita ko na ang mga pinakanamimiss kong friends!!!

haay, wala na ako masabi... mejo nanghinayang nga lang ako na nde na ako makapag-update ng maayos kasi lintek, wala pa rn akong pc... huhuhuhuhu...

anyway, mula december 1 naman, naisulat ko na sa starbucks planner ko yung mga nangyari so ok lang rn... hehehehe...

haaaaay... sina rj at rosanna nag-aaway dito sa tabi ko... hahahaha...


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KUNG MABABASA MO TO, GUSTO KO LANG SABIHIN NA WAG KA MATAKOT NA ISIPIN YUNG ALAM KONG INIISIP MO KASI HINDI KA NAMAN NAGFFEELING PAG INISIP MO YUN KASI BINIGAY KO NA SAYO ANG LAHAT NG DAHILAN PARA MALAMAN MONG IKAW NGA YUN! OO, IKAW!

i've been broken too many times already... i'm getting tired of forcing to fix myself up after every fall.. so this time, i'm not planning to lose you...

i just hope you can read this... too bad you cant... :)

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~nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na lalong mahulog sa iyo?~

tangna, and2 ako kina homer (im back here after a very long time.. hahaha) at gagawa dapat kami ng lab rep pero walang questions so wala rn.. ahahaha..

anyway, what's up?

well, ginagawa pa rn bahay namin... pero nagiimprove na kasi wala na yung lumang kwarto ko... awww... so much memories sa kwarto na yun... oh well... hahahaha...

ano pa ba?

hmmm... may planner na ako ng starbucks! yey! at nakakatawa kasi 2 planner yung na-claim ko 2day! 1 for me, 1 for coeli.. :P yup, yun n gift ko sa kanya, yung planner ko tapos kinompleto ko na lang yung card nya kasi may kulang pa... and thanks to my cousin pa yun na binigay sakin yung sticker nya kya naclaim ko na kanina yung isa pa...hehehe...

oh, nakasakay na ako sa kotse na nagddrift... mega cool! hahahaha...


anyway, yun n lng muna... nood muna kami ni homer ng tv... hahaha...


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anyway, its nice to know na naaapreciate nya yung mga gnagawa ko for her.. :D

"big deal sakin yung gnawa mo.. bka akala ko lang nde.."

aawww... hehehehe...

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~nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na lalong mahulog sayo?~

nope. not anymore.